Mad As A March Hare.

Please excuse my long absence. Things have been going hellishly. Allow me to explain:

Well, first and foremost, I had quite the medical scare. As I may or may not have mentioned, I don't recall which, I've been having severe, nauseating and dizzying headaches for the past 4 or 5 months now. I've been to the doctor time and time again, and they just sent me off with painkillers. The last time I went, however, my primary care doctor looked into the back of my eyes, to discover that my optic nerve in my left eye looked a bit off. Bad. The swelling of the optic nerve, or papilledema, is caused by either meningitis or brain tumors. After a trip to an ophthalmologist to help confirm Dr. Pickett's initial diagnosis, I went to a neuro-ophthalmologist for a third opinion. As it turns out, my optic nerve is merely tilted from head injury, and so looks distorted. So, the only thing I gained from the experience, is I can now spell "ophthalmologist." But, I tell you, spending a week thinking you're gonna die is nothing fun. Having to tell your friends is even worse. Honestly, I never realized how many people care about me until this happened, and how many people don't that I thought did. Oh well. You learn who your friends are, right?

So, they still don't know what is causing my headaches, and I don't have another appointment until the end of November, then I lose Dr. Pickett for another year because she's having a second child. However, I believe their original theory is still in play. That being that my body is producing too much spinal fluid, causing pressure to build in my intercranial cavity. Woohoo. That requires a spinal tap for fixing. But I'd take it over the other option any day. Until then, I suffer with throbbing head pain, and a lack of tolerance towards much anything.

The stress of senior year is coming into play. With my GPA [1.45] and class rank [123/178] it's not likely for me to even be accepted to Salem State, let alone RIC, where I'd really like to go. Even then, I still don't really know what I want to do. I'd love to major in musical theater, but I know that the work for me would be overbearing. I'd really, truly love to be a vocal major, but all the schools that offer it or either far too expensive [20,000+] or private, which implies being expensive anyway. I'd most definitely enjoy majoring in psychology, but after my head injury, that sort of information get jumbled in my mind very easily. As well as the fact that I believe that one has to be mentally stable to work in any sort of field where I'd be closely working with people, and I can honestly say that I am not a mentally stable person in many a case.

Oh, le sigh. And poor me. Other things have been bothering me as well, but I'll save them for another time. At the moment, I'm creating a new RP character. You see, I have a friend who RP's as the Mad Hatter, and what's a Hatter without his March Hare? He's a really nice guy though, and he really is the human form of the Mad Hatter, I swear. 10/6 [The note on the Hatter's hat reads so] is his birthday, and he's mad as, well, a hatter. Honestly, the guy's crazy in the most witty and entertaining of ways. So, off I go. I must research and create.