The Waiting Game.

I'm beginning to come to terms with the fact that I will spend an absolutely disgusting amount of time just waiting for Kyle. I wait for him every night, just to talk to him for ten minutes to say good night. I wait for every Sunday evening when I can actually talk to him for an hour or two. I wait for the time his father finally accepts the fact that I'm not just going to disappear, and allows me to see him. I wait for college, when he'll hopefully be out here, so maybe I can see him more often. Even then, I'll wait for the weekends, when maybe we'll both have some time off from school and work and get to go out somewhere. Unless, of course, he ends up in Japan like he wants to. In which case, I will spend six years alone. Six years a world away from the one I love, the time difference and busy schedules making it nearly impossible to have a real time conversation. I'll only be able to afford to visit maybe once a year, maybe less than that. Then after that, when he comes back, if he comes back, he'll have a job, and hobbies, and friends. And so will I. And I will wait. I'll be just like Lita, spending all her time waiting for Wataru in the clearing not too far from their shelter. All she ever does is wait. And he's always far away, off doing Gaia knows what. She's perfectly willing to wait. I'm perfectly willing to wait. But he'd better make it worth it.

Now that I've mentioned Lita, I suppose I should explain who she is. My roleplay character. Oh, yes, I can get nerdier. Her full name is Litajial Sirena Yukara. A full-blooded wolf demon. Maiden name, Gunsiero. Married to Wataru Yukara as of December 16^th, last year. If you're wondering, Wataru is Kyle. It's where we met. Yes, that makes us both nerds and losers. Yes, I am in an online relationship with a guy half a country away. Yes, I am crazy. No, he's not a 40 year old pedophile. Yes, I can explain to you how I can be in love with someone I've never seen, but you wouldn't understand anyway. Because I too once believed that you could never fall in love with someone over the internet, and then it happened. And, honestly, I could give two shits about what anyone has to say about it. I'm happier than I've ever been, and that's what matters. Any other questions? No? Good.

On a slightly less hostile note: Today is national Kiss a Vegan/Hug a Vegetarian day. I have yet to receive any hugs. Boo that.